I quit

I quit the life of a showgirl

I quit the people who made that life miserable

The shinny luffah I’d wanted to be so badly

Revealed itself to be filled with mold, rotten to its very core

It took months for the mildew to show on the outer edges

But really i knew

Knew we weren’t right

The slippery little fairy dodged my grasp long before I realized how problematic she was

So i guess she did me a favor

The pigeon eyed bird stayed far too long, then still managed to pull the rug out from under me

Prioritized the girl she’d just met over me —

Then there’s the cocker spaniel wannabe who turned out to be nothing but a man’s worst enemy

The kind that snuggles up close only to run away when it’s no longer fun and easy

Took my body out in a hearse, thinking i was gone

I rose back from the dead

Conquered those who attempted to smite me

Razed the doubts they planted in my mind to the ground

The most significant one of them all is about to come back,

Falling at my feet, begging for forgiveness with his tail between his legs

After realizing the weight of everything: he and his misguided cowardly choices cut me to the bone;

So deep it reached and hollowed out my marrow

Dumping my body in a wheel barrow

Propelling me to seek out the opinions of every eligible adult before i do or say anything, lest it send me to an early grave again.

All this rising from the ashes is getting to me

I’m ready to just be, spread my big eagle-like wings and fly

Goodbye—

Goodbye to all that does not serve me

All the small-minded foes who never rose to the occasion, even when it was dire

Leaving me to grow so tall I wobbled and took some others down with me

Treebeard is teaching me

Teaching me to trust my own roots and leave the rest when I fly the nest

Wobbly legs are far greater than clipped wings

I refuse to clip my own wings with the fears running through my mind

Threatening to take away my love doesn’t do it anymore

I know the Universe has so much more in store—perfect license plates and strokes of unbelievable luck…

Worlds of wonders at my feet await